It's almost Thanksgiving

So, I thought I'd get a head-start on some of the things I'm thankful for.
I'm thankful for a husband who is willing to work twice as hard so I can stay home with our son
I'm thankful for a son who thinks that the world revolves around me... even though it really revolves around HIM!
I'm thankful for the roof over my head
I'm thankful for a family that is supportive of all of my decisions, no matter what.
I'm thankful for a God who reminds me that I am loved, even when I feel like the whole world is kicking me.
I'm thankful for all my friends, old, new and everywhere in between.
I'm thankful for a church where I am welcomed regardless of how I look, what I wear, or how often I come.
I'm thankful for my 1-minute prayer books, sometimes they're the only way I can get any Bible reading done!
I'm thankful for my cousins... even though it may not seem like it sometimes.
I'm thankful for the invention of the COFFEE MAKER!
I'm thankful for baby hugs and kisses. Nothin in the whole world like 'em!

birthday bemusement

So, here it is, almost 4 days after my birthday, and still no calls from more than half my family. How depressing is that??!?? Not only that, but I realized today that I depend on other people to much to make me happy. So... tomorrow morning, I'm calling Silver Cross to see if they have any volunteer programs that involve working with babies or toddlers, I'm gonna start making my own plans with my friends, and I'm going to keep looking for a job, and keep calling about the compass tests until I get a call back.

Doesn't that irritate you when people don't call you back? I know it bugs the living snot out of me. Another thing that bugs me... when my fiance rolls over and falls asleep without even kissing me goodnight! I mean... if I can get up at 5:30 every single morning to kiss him, I think he can pucker up for me! Oy VEY!!

I don't think he even understands the meaning of the word "romantic"... his idea of fun is having a big-word contest... telling me that I'm using them improperly, and that "you don't even know what that word means.." He's one to talk. Mr. Hotshot himself... grr. *sigh* ok... ranting over.

I need to get one of those "no complaints" bracelets I saw on Oprah the other night. I probably wouldn't even last a day! But on the upside, I'm getting started at Curves soon! WOO WOO! Hopefully before the wedding, I'll be in decent shape. Honestly, I don't even know why I'm marrying him... he doesn't respect me, he doesn't value me, and I'm never going to be as important to him as I should be. Not to mention his multiple addictions... alcohol, smoking and possibly porn.... I just can't live like this. I made up a list today of things Chris can do to make me happy, and when I showed it to him, he laughed at it. Yeah... laughed at it. So apparently, he doesn't even want to make me happy. None of it was really anything that would take much effort, either!! Call me for no reason, remember funny things that happened, make me dinner on your days off, take me for a walk around town, really talk to me... not just "What's for dinner, babe?" or "did you get the laundry done today?' but real conversation. Watch a movie out in the living room with me, take me out once in a while, eat dinner with me... normal-people stuff. That's what he laughed at.. that list. I just don't know how to take that.