Monday, March 19, 2007
*sigh*
been thinking alot lately... and none of it really that good. I mean, I made some money today for the first time in at least 6 months, and I'm going to end up spending 2/3 of it on LAUNDRY of all things. It was either that or spend my birthday doing laundry.. I don't THINK SO!! Yeah.. my 19th is coming up, and I have nothing to show for it. How depressing is that? I'm not in school, don't have a job, spend most of my time sitting around on my tuckus because there's absolutely nothing to do in Elwood. This sucks. God I hate being depressed. I just wish I had some friends of my own, and I wish I could do something for myself for once... something that would make me feel good about myself. UGH. I hate this feeling, I hate feeling like I'm not good for anything but cooking and cleaning. I give up.. I can't even make myself feel any better. Even writing it out doesn't help. *sigh*
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You do realize that the only reason you are depressed is that you are sitting on your ass.
ReplyDeleteYou're not even 19 and you've already given up on life, which makes you a loser. The only difference between a loser and a winner is that a winner tries.
If you try and fail, you know something else that doesn't work. Failing isn't a bad thing, as long as you're trying.
Go out and find the worst job you can imagine, whether that is working as a fry cook at McDonald's or cleaning bathroom floors at a methadone clinic. Try to find a place where the worst people in the world work.
Force yourself to go into work every day, regardless of whether you want to go in or not, and each day on your way to your job, think of 25 things you like about that job. It can be the fact that they pay you, unless you think not getting paid would be worse, or perhaps the fact that it's close enough to your home to allow you to walk there. Maybe you like the fact that one pretty girl comes in about once every two weeks, or that they give you a free hamburger for lunch. Also, try to see the best in the people you work with and your customers.
If you do this for one month, you will not longer be depressed and you will be lightyears beyond where you are now.
"Therefore, choose life."
Wow...don't know who wes. s. is... but i guess he's never been to Elwood!! But I'm with him on getting out and doing something, as you well know!! If you can't get a paying job, volunteer somewhere. Love ya toots!!
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