Well, i got my employee i.d. from work yesterday, which means i can now sign on to the cash register, and start/end a shift all by myself. YAY... i'm a big girl now. i also got my official schedule - Tues, Thurs, Fri and Sat... mostly afternoons with one night. that's once i get out of training, of course.... i'm almost done. my spec sheet is almost all signed off for 2nd shift. now i just have to learn how to close up the store. what else... oh. Denise and the kids came over earlier this week. right as i was starting to get ready for work, Denise says, 'oh, let's talk about the wedding.' i told her i've talked to her son about it countless times, and nothing ever happens, so i'm done talking. she's like, 'well, there has to be SOMETHING you can still do.'
isn't it pointless to start planning something that you have NO money for.... i think so. it just makes me more depressed. then i find out that denise has offered to pay for most of the wedding, wich isn't what i want. because then she's going to start asserting herself into the decorations, the cake, the food... and then it won't be MY wedding anymore.
Chris found a house in town for sale yesterday... 3 doors up from where we used to live. I guess Rodney and them are all moving out at the end of this week, and i found someone to hold on to the piano for me until i have somewhere for it again. back to the house for sale... payments of 657 a month, but i told chris that i didn't want to move AGAIN already... we JUST got here, things still aren't all in place, and he wants to move again why.
i finally caught up with my dad last night, which was nice. i don't talk to him that much, so when i do, it's for a while. chris didn't know it was Dad, so when i came out of our room, he started asking questions... who was that... everything ok... what's going on. once he knew it was dad, he was ok. For some reason, he seems to be very suspicious of my online friends and anyone i talk to on the phone. For example, i was talking to a friend i haven't seen in probably 3 years, and he said something about 'your other boyfriend'... i've talked to Chris about this particular guy, and he knows it's just a friendship, so what's his problem....
when i leave for work later, i'm going to leave him a note, if he's not up already, asking him to PLEASE do the laundry... i bet 5 bucks he won't, even though we've got the money. i'm watching my cats play with each other... they always make me smile, even when they're being bad. that doesn't say much for my disciplinary skills, now does it... they're just so cute. Apparently one of the girls that used to come around here is now spreading rumors that i'm pregnant, and now people are starting to ask. that hurts, because i thought that girl was my friend. WRONG. friends don't tell stories about each other.... unless they're the good kind.
that's pretty much it for me.... more later.
Friday, April 27, 2007
latest edition of the Cassie Chronicles
Well, i got my employee i.d. from work yesterday, which means i can now sign on to the cash register, and start/end a shift all by myself. YAY... i'm a big girl now. i also got my official schedule - Tues, Thurs, Fri and Sat... mostly afternoons with one night. that's once i get out of training, of course.... i'm almost done. my spec sheet is almost all signed off for 2nd shift. now i just have to learn how to close up the store. what else... oh. Denise and the kids came over earlier this week. right as i was starting to get ready for work, Denise says, 'oh, let's talk about the wedding.' i told her i've talked to her son about it countless times, and nothing ever happens, so i'm done talking. she's like, 'well, there has to be SOMETHING you can still do.'
isn't it pointless to start planning something that you have NO money for.... i think so. it just makes me more depressed. then i find out that denise has offered to pay for most of the wedding, wich isn't what i want. because then she's going to start asserting herself into the decorations, the cake, the food... and then it won't be MY wedding anymore.
Chris found a house in town for sale yesterday... 3 doors up from where we used to live. I guess Rodney and them are all moving out at the end of this week, and i found someone to hold on to the piano for me until i have somewhere for it again. back to the house for sale... payments of 657 a month, but i told chris that i didn't want to move AGAIN already... we JUST got here, things still aren't all in place, and he wants to move again why.
i finally caught up with my dad last night, which was nice. i don't talk to him that much, so when i do, it's for a while. chris didn't know it was Dad, so when i came out of our room, he started asking questions... who was that... everything ok... what's going on. once he knew it was dad, he was ok. For some reason, he seems to be very suspicious of my online friends and anyone i talk to on the phone. For example, i was talking to a friend i haven't seen in probably 3 years, and he said something about 'your other boyfriend'... i've talked to Chris about this particular guy, and he knows it's just a friendship, so what's his problem....
when i leave for work later, i'm going to leave him a note, if he's not up already, asking him to PLEASE do the laundry... i bet 5 bucks he won't, even though we've got the money. i'm watching my cats play with each other... they always make me smile, even when they're being bad. that doesn't say much for my disciplinary skills, now does it... they're just so cute. Apparently one of the girls that used to come around here is now spreading rumors that i'm pregnant, and now people are starting to ask. that hurts, because i thought that girl was my friend. WRONG. friends don't tell stories about each other.... unless they're the good kind.
that's pretty much it for me.... more later.
isn't it pointless to start planning something that you have NO money for.... i think so. it just makes me more depressed. then i find out that denise has offered to pay for most of the wedding, wich isn't what i want. because then she's going to start asserting herself into the decorations, the cake, the food... and then it won't be MY wedding anymore.
Chris found a house in town for sale yesterday... 3 doors up from where we used to live. I guess Rodney and them are all moving out at the end of this week, and i found someone to hold on to the piano for me until i have somewhere for it again. back to the house for sale... payments of 657 a month, but i told chris that i didn't want to move AGAIN already... we JUST got here, things still aren't all in place, and he wants to move again why.
i finally caught up with my dad last night, which was nice. i don't talk to him that much, so when i do, it's for a while. chris didn't know it was Dad, so when i came out of our room, he started asking questions... who was that... everything ok... what's going on. once he knew it was dad, he was ok. For some reason, he seems to be very suspicious of my online friends and anyone i talk to on the phone. For example, i was talking to a friend i haven't seen in probably 3 years, and he said something about 'your other boyfriend'... i've talked to Chris about this particular guy, and he knows it's just a friendship, so what's his problem....
when i leave for work later, i'm going to leave him a note, if he's not up already, asking him to PLEASE do the laundry... i bet 5 bucks he won't, even though we've got the money. i'm watching my cats play with each other... they always make me smile, even when they're being bad. that doesn't say much for my disciplinary skills, now does it... they're just so cute. Apparently one of the girls that used to come around here is now spreading rumors that i'm pregnant, and now people are starting to ask. that hurts, because i thought that girl was my friend. WRONG. friends don't tell stories about each other.... unless they're the good kind.
that's pretty much it for me.... more later.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
my ABC's... stolen from mom
ABC's of Me
A - Available/Single? engaged
B- Best Friend? my mom.
C - Cake or Pie? well, if i MUST choose... ice cream pie
D - Drink Of Choice? my 'pamper-me' flavored coffee
E - Essential Item You Use Everyday? cd player
F - Favorite Color? it changes every day. today it's a dark, clear blue like the ocean
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? no difference to me.
H - Home or Homesick? both... in my new home, but homesick for my old home.
I - Indulgence? flavored coffee.
J - January Or February? February...it's closer to spring, it has Valentine's day, and just the way it looks makes me smile.
K - Kids & Their Names? none yet, but i hope to have some someday.
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? love and other people to share it with.
M - Marriage date? 8/26/07
N - Number Of Siblings? 1 brother
O - Oranges Or Apples? apples with a boatload of peanut butter and a little bit of cinnamon sugar - thanks for that combo, Jos.
P - Phobias/Fears? not having anyone anywhere nearby, losing the people i love, spiders and other creepy-crawlies
Q - Favorite Quote: When you're walking through Hell, keep walking. Winston Churchill
R - Rain/Sunshine? Rain, if it's warm but sunshine generally
S - Season? my favorite is spring... it's just now getting warm enough to start calling it that.
T - Tag 3 or 4 people... no comprende.
U - Unknown Fact About Me? I am terrified of being completely alone.
V - Vegetable you don't like? mushrooms, onions, water chestnuts. i'm sure there are more, i just can't think of them.
W- Worst Habit? 1 - biting my nails. 2 - being lazy
X - X-rays You've Had? right arm, head.... can't think of any others.
Y - Your Favorite Food? there was this one meal my mom made... it was a pasta salad with ham or something in it... FABULOUS.
Z - Zodiac Sign? Aries.
A - Available/Single? engaged
B- Best Friend? my mom.
C - Cake or Pie? well, if i MUST choose... ice cream pie
D - Drink Of Choice? my 'pamper-me' flavored coffee
E - Essential Item You Use Everyday? cd player
F - Favorite Color? it changes every day. today it's a dark, clear blue like the ocean
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? no difference to me.
H - Home or Homesick? both... in my new home, but homesick for my old home.
I - Indulgence? flavored coffee.
J - January Or February? February...it's closer to spring, it has Valentine's day, and just the way it looks makes me smile.
K - Kids & Their Names? none yet, but i hope to have some someday.
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? love and other people to share it with.
M - Marriage date? 8/26/07
N - Number Of Siblings? 1 brother
O - Oranges Or Apples? apples with a boatload of peanut butter and a little bit of cinnamon sugar - thanks for that combo, Jos.
P - Phobias/Fears? not having anyone anywhere nearby, losing the people i love, spiders and other creepy-crawlies
Q - Favorite Quote: When you're walking through Hell, keep walking. Winston Churchill
R - Rain/Sunshine? Rain, if it's warm but sunshine generally
S - Season? my favorite is spring... it's just now getting warm enough to start calling it that.
T - Tag 3 or 4 people... no comprende.
U - Unknown Fact About Me? I am terrified of being completely alone.
V - Vegetable you don't like? mushrooms, onions, water chestnuts. i'm sure there are more, i just can't think of them.
W- Worst Habit? 1 - biting my nails. 2 - being lazy
X - X-rays You've Had? right arm, head.... can't think of any others.
Y - Your Favorite Food? there was this one meal my mom made... it was a pasta salad with ham or something in it... FABULOUS.
Z - Zodiac Sign? Aries.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
dunno
i hate it when i can't sign on..... it really irritates me. so, about a week ago, i had alot on my mind, and i couldn't get on to type it down, and now my keyboard is all screwed up... another one that bugs me; when people wreck stuff and then won't take responsibility. i mean, come on... everyone that comes over here is over 18, most of them have jobs, and there's no reason to be afraid to say 'hey, i spilled pop on your keyboard; i'll get you a new one.'
on the up side, i did get a job, finally. so, if you guys are passing thru elwood and need gas or snacks or somethin, stop at the only gas station in town and chances are i'll be there. i was supposed to go see my grandpa today, but i took some tylenol pm at 2 in the morning, and it made me sleep until 11 am. don't get me wrong, it feels good to be rested, but i missed out on spending time with my dad and brother and seeing my grandpa... not to mention those fabulous cookies my mom told me about.
speaking of my mom, i read some of her back blogs last night, and one in particular made me cry. she was doing this count-down thing, and one of 2 things she desperately wants is for me to come home. the 16th marked 1 year i've been gone... i don't know why i'm having such a hard time with this, maybe because i have nothing to show for it except a dead-end job at a gas station and blank expression. i try not to let my feelings out to much, because nobody here understands. but then i turn into a pressure cooker, and i explode all over someone who doesn't deserve it....
this would be so much easier if i had my FREAKIN medicine... but of course, i don't, and i probably won't for another 4 or 5 months. talk about pissing me off..... grrrr. and all i hear about it is, 'you're handling it so well... i'm so impressed.... i'm proud of you.' i'm NOT handling it well... i'm just hiding it well. but then, hiding doesn't really work. SIGH..... cross your fingers and say your prayers for me, please.
on the up side, i did get a job, finally. so, if you guys are passing thru elwood and need gas or snacks or somethin, stop at the only gas station in town and chances are i'll be there. i was supposed to go see my grandpa today, but i took some tylenol pm at 2 in the morning, and it made me sleep until 11 am. don't get me wrong, it feels good to be rested, but i missed out on spending time with my dad and brother and seeing my grandpa... not to mention those fabulous cookies my mom told me about.
speaking of my mom, i read some of her back blogs last night, and one in particular made me cry. she was doing this count-down thing, and one of 2 things she desperately wants is for me to come home. the 16th marked 1 year i've been gone... i don't know why i'm having such a hard time with this, maybe because i have nothing to show for it except a dead-end job at a gas station and blank expression. i try not to let my feelings out to much, because nobody here understands. but then i turn into a pressure cooker, and i explode all over someone who doesn't deserve it....
this would be so much easier if i had my FREAKIN medicine... but of course, i don't, and i probably won't for another 4 or 5 months. talk about pissing me off..... grrrr. and all i hear about it is, 'you're handling it so well... i'm so impressed.... i'm proud of you.' i'm NOT handling it well... i'm just hiding it well. but then, hiding doesn't really work. SIGH..... cross your fingers and say your prayers for me, please.
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