and everything I can't remember....

I probably can't remember for a reason! lol. It's been a long time since I posted, and I need to get back into the habit, but when??? I sit here at my keyboard, fighting tears because again the night didn't go the way I wanted it to... but that's the price I pay for having a toddler. Not that I would trade him for anything! Just disappointed because I hardly see my husband at all, and when I do he's on his way out the door, or he's just sitting on the computer. He's been off work for almost 2 months now, and the doctors are STILL no closer to a diagnosis. They've ruled out only 2 things (granted, 2 big things, but still...) cancer and celiac disease. It looks like the rough season I started at 18 isn't anywhere close to being finished. Dear God, please tell me there is light at the end of this tunnel. I'm so frustrated and sad and tired and I feel so alone in myself. Even though I know I'm not, it doesn't change the way I feel. All the emotion surging through my brain is enough to make me cry.