Last night...

went alot better than I expected. We talked about the baby, about how serious Dad is about any of his healing stuff. He asked me what I need from him as a dad now, and I told him that really the only thing I need from him is proof that he doesn't want the family to fall apart. The only thing I need from him is for him to step up and do more than just what needs to be done. We talked about some steps he should take... don't know if/when he will, but when I mentioned them he was like, "oh, yeah... I really should do that!" We talked about the next step of his healing, working on his character flaws, and I hope this new counselor really helps him with that. I wouldn't say I saw a different Dad than I saw 2 years ago, but I saw potential, which encouraged me. I saw that he wants to make an effort, but maybe sometimes he doesn't know how? We talked about that alot, actually... what to do when you're not quite sure what the next step is. We talked about going out to Princeton on Friday, and getting that ticket taken care of and the title transfered so that the car is really Michelle's and I have no further attatchment to it, and me opening a savings account in my name only so that there's money set aside in case anything happens. It may not be much at first, but a few dollars a week will start to add up! We'll see what happens with that. It was really nice, even through all the hard parts. I'm glad we made it work, and hopefully we can keep the connection up again.